My Sweetest Melody

My sweetest melody. Of all the ways we have found to hurt ourselves, the worse has been through love.We are always suffering because of someonewho doesn’t love us, or someone who has left us,or someone who won’t forget us.If we are alone, it is because no one wants us. If we are not alone, it is because in this earth, at least there is one single person who needs us, but we take that love for granted too. We presume that he/she is always available and we Are at a loss here. People say, that love is blind, but how it can be when so many emotions are involved in- love. Of course love don't have eyes, but heart Understand more than what eye can. Love can change your world within a minute, making your life a hell or a heaven. The saddest part of this love is, we try to shackles it off when it comes our way, and when it is gone we go behind it only to sigh and lie in deep sorrow within ourself. We fail to realize our true love just to satisfy our ego. Our heart wanted our love without any argument, but our mind gives hundred reasons to leave and, true to form, mind comes out to be strong. It never regret too for any decision taken. But heart cries, crave and bleed for the love for which mind had given a great nod. Someone's love go unheeded too, and the heart like a creeping plant, whithers unless it has something around which it can entwine. I was also in love. He was my childhood days friend. The day we started our friendship became a great foundation for my love. It all happened gradually, but it happened, only to make me more and more crazy for him. I also had the feelings, which is really hard to define, the feelings which had a tinge of pain in the happiness, which had a tears in laughter and life in death and death in life. I waited for him, everyday so that he may say something to me. Everytime, it made my heart beat faster than fast and my stomach starts to feel all fluttery and a single nice thing said to me by him would make me insane. I used to think - how all our attention goes to that one person and even if you're not talking to them they are Still on your mind 24/7.He was the one who made me feel all these things;those thousand feelings and millions of thoughts were only because of him. And like a crazy, I crave a love so deep the ocean would be jealous. I used to do every single thing that made him smile and seeing his smile, I would wonder how precious would the smile of love becomes to the one who is in love with the smile owner. And, the same valuable his smile was to me. And I would just live in a fantasy with him sharing him all my wonderful feelings. But, one day, something hit me hard and everything was broken. And I realized that love is a cage binding you, it is a trap held deep beneath your heart restricting your fragile bones, and suddenly everything disappeared. One day, he called me - 'Haana, I want to share something with you, you just come for a cup of coffee, I want to tell you something'. "But, I am busy, right now Rocky, My Auntie is here with me and she came all the way from Canada, How can I come? It is impossible for me to step outside the house, as my mom is also out to buy grocery items" . But, he was not there to listen my whole sentence, as he plunked the phone. After half an hour, again he called-"Hey, where are you, what happened, are you stucked in traffic jam . Please, try to manage it fast, I am waiting here with my friend" . This, was as usual, Rocky never thought of me, He always took me for granted. He didn't even care for my decision. Sometimes, it did hurt me a lot but the next few hours would erase the scar too, since my heart was too longanimous for this particular boy, and unfortunately his heart was incognizant of my new heart. After, few minutes he rang me up again and this time my mom picked up the phone, as she had just entered the room. I took the bag from her and rushed inside the kitchen to get her a glass of water. After some time, she said to me - "lt was for you, dear, It was Rocky who wanted to talk, you call him." Okay, Mom, I said. And I called him back. He kept insisting that.. He wanted to introduce a friend to me, and I should hurry. And as my mom also came, I took permission and I reached the coffee house. As, I entered, I saw a beautiful girl facing a boy just near the door. I took a cursory look, to look for Rocky. The same moment, the boy who was with the beautiful girl turned back and shook his hand. It was Rocky who was sitting with that beauty, and something broke inside me. My instincts could guess who she was. And my heart ached. Rocky didn't seem to bother about anything, so happy he was. "Hanna, meet my girlfriend, Sonia, and Sonia, this is my wild cat, Hanna". Rocky would always tease me saying wild cat, as I always used to fight with him. Then, after an hour Sonia stood up, saying she has to go. Rocky went with her, insisting me to stay for few minutes more, saying that he wanted to tell everything to me. He came back and started telling about her. Now, I came to know that why his phone used to be busy often. "But, when we were best buddy, why you did not tell me earlier, Rocky". I could only ask this question. "Oh! Hanna, you don't know about love, when we fall in love, we don't remember anything. When I used to be with her, I would crave for the time to stop, so that I could spend more and more time with her and when I used to be away from her, my heart would think all the time about her. So what and when I was to tell you". Rocky was explaining me the love. The love which I got more earlier than him, but without any love in return. "Oh! Rocky, I am so happy for you". I could only say this. Something came out from my heart into my throat and then into my eyes.And, I decided to go to Canada with my Auntie. My Auntie Everytime she used to ask me to come and stay with her, as she was a grass widow and used to live all alone in a big house. And this time, I took a firm decision. I know, that it will be too hard to condition myself to a long absence of my best buddy, but I will try to inure.. to live with him in the heart. He will not be beside me, but He will be always inside me. And, it is the fact that Best friends never propose each other, But They really feel bad when one gets committed to some other. And, I started hurrying home, as if I was frightened with my own decision. The imperfect person of my perfect love story was simply enjoying his thoughts and feelings, in which there was no place for me. But, as, Sonia was his first love,in the same way Rocky was my first love. So I wished him to be happy always. And I prayed to God to give him all the happiness he deserved. And really, when we are deeply in true love, that person's happiness matters us the most, even more than ours. Love is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person. To love somebody isn't just a strong feeling. It is a decision, A judgement and a promise. And, I knelt before the decision of God and promised myself to never cross HIS judgment. To accept his judgement with all my heart and soul. And, with this prayer, there was a music suitable to greeting the dawn. The dawn of my new day, the dawn of my new decision.The dawn that performed serenade for me. And, I decided to treasure his love deep inside, as a valuable gift. I will never say, that my love was incomplete, but I will say love completed me.I took to writing, which worked as an object of entwining my creeping plant-my heart. Believe me, if love is the worst atrocities, the human heart could devise, it is also the repository of one’s deepest and sincerest feelings and beliefs. It all depends on which side is treasured more by us.