While sitting on a sofa in the basement I realized how beautiful life can get only if you have goals and ambitions. Only if you could believe in yourself, things can change. Life can change. It can change like a roller coaster every second, every minute, every micro second only if you have passion to control the things you have always thought are not in your control.
Things can only workout if you try to find what is hidden. Things will only workout if you desire to dream what you usually don’t. Life is complicated. Life throw you in a shell which is never on the shore. It is always in the sea. Waves of uncertainty and doubt becomes your destiny. But, there is always another story. Life goes on even under water. Where its impossible to breathe, where nothing is in your control, where you are not home. Life still goes on when you think you are almost dead. Life still goes on when you realize that you can not survive.
Life is a surprise. Life is all about not getting surprised. When I was nine I was surprised to know that I spent nine months in my mom’s womb. Life is a miracle. Life is more than a miracle. By the time I was seventeen I thought no one could understand my pain which was derived by a heart break. But, I survived. Life is amazing. I grabbed a knife once when I was eighteen, I thought my suffering was too much that it should be ended until I found someone with greater suffering. Life is a surprise like I told you. Its just not about getting surprised.
I know I wanted to live. I loved living. I loved singing songs, watching the sky, eating ice-cream and teasing my mom for no reason. But, just in a matter of a blink I wanted to leave. I told my mother that I wanted to end my suffering and she only requested me to stay instead of forcing me to shut up. Like always, life surprises you. But, you don’t have to get surprised. While crying on my best friend’s shoulder remembering that one lover who never loved me. My best friend sharing his feelings and telling he loves me for who I am, he knows my worth. And, within a second that flip of emotions I felt even when I tried to ignore each feeling that moment. Life surprised me.
The more I write, more thoughts and memories pop up in my head. I have been surprised by life too much that even this passing second and this coming second and look that second which just passed, it’s a surprise.
Life is a surprise.
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